Youth of two truths

Growing up In Queens, in the 70's. I was protected by a blanket of love provided by both my mother and my grandmother. There was pride, and there was the fear of the outside world turning me into something less than their love allowed me to be.

During this time, there were many ugly realities, racism, drugs, teen pregnancy, unemployment etc. While growing up in Springfield Gardens just outside of Rochdale Village all I knew, fortunately, was my grandmothers back yard.

Green grass and many fruit trees - we had a cherry tree, crab and granny apple trees, a fig tree, and what I thought was a vast back yard. This was where I spent time looking under rocks at the lives of animals and creatures going about their business and gave me an understanding of what god provides for us all down to the smallest of his creatures... How we use what he provides - that defines our happiness...

This is what I understood too, that the world was a strange and unkind place. I
I was introduced to the world by the wisdom of my teen mom and the circles she traveled.. The punks thugs and victims were everywhere when we walked the streets... first in Springfield Gardens, then in Far Rockaway, but that story will come later.

Suffice to say today I understand another truth. That what god provides to us, and what we desire for ourselves are two different things. God gives us needs and bounty to satisfy. We give ourselves boundaries, desires, limits and wants that often have little or no benifit to our lives. The more we want, seek and desire the less our needs are being met.

How can one starve and be hungry for only photos of food?
How can one be sad and not seek joy but betrayal in happiness?
How can one be thirsty and seek only to drink sea water?
How can one leave pain only to return to it - in stead of embrassing the pleasure of honest love?
How can one be lonely and chase away those who only want to be close?

In my youth I didn't understand it.
In my maturity I'm confused by it.

In love - I did it

I guess all things come full circle, if you live long enough...

The way things go 1

Friggin awesome video clip - saw this once when i was younger - never forgot the name - because it just fit..
again 3 am at my uncles house - this time on channel 13 lol

always leaves me speechless...
talk about a better mouse trap!!

this could be a human trap - just picture some poor unfortunate soul sleeping on a couch behind all those fumes form chemical reactions

New suit and tie

I was lucky enough to have a good friend
bless me with the hottest suit I've ever worn.

Don't sound like a big deal - but if you only knew..

attached is a picture of me - loving the fabric!

Friendships are as strange as people come.

"... Some help give you guidance, while others lead you astray..."

Anyone who flips for a suit like this is a true blue in my book.

Thanks LB!

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I see promises in your rejection
smiles in your lips
~
The possibilities,
wide open
the opportunity
unspoken
the longevity
uncertain

and time just carries on

the temptation
i should be walking
the hesitation
we do not mention
the desire to inhale your flesh

unknown, unbound, unwound
surround, compounds of the profound
and , infinite resolutions stiffen my resolve

Twisted, I'd ripped it
tore it from my being
without seeing and not
knowing that caring is a sin...

I know when you need me
you will know what to do
call me up - we'll go drinking
and make our own voodoo

every day your life is calling
every day God touches your soul
broken hearts and their mourning
Will make the heart grow cold

you got to be wise to your calling
listen close to what life has to sell
when your heart is collapsing
you will have many stories to tell

every story has it's pain
every person a point of view
and wherever you're standing
you know just what to do

poor hurt thing
vicious in your pain
i hope to see you soon
when you open up again

You precious beautiful Delicate!
come slowly into view
come smile and see
the poetry in what we do

Your smile brings a joy
that I wish only i could share
but i wish even harder
to touch that part that cares

Not now while it's mending
for healing hearts never ring true
I'll wait till it's healed - truth revealed-
then your heart won't be so cruel

we can have our quiet nights
and often a select morning
we can pretend to fight
just to keep love pouring

Dripping down the sides
of our shiny matching cups
we'll pretend it's boring being quiet
and then fake a fuss

I know you feel the calling
cause i see it in your eyes
your heart lifted and souring
will tell us both why

Why when you feel the truth
and your scared - too scared to cry
why you'd rather call him
when he does not care - why

"deo5"

WONDER BOY!! TENACIOUS D

I discovered Tenacious D years ago at my uncles house at 3am on HBO.
Yes that's Jack Black - but way before anyone gave a damn it was just him and his main man on stage and you had to imagine it all !

This dude got my attention for his passion alone..
Everything this band does is a spoof - but the quality of the material - even if it is 20 years too late is excellent!
moral of the story of wonder boy?
NEVER THINK SMALL rize above the mucky muck!!!